Desu.

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 12:16:39 GMT

I shall now abandon my Livejournal. If I am to use it, it will only be to comment in someone else's.

Good Night, Sweet Prince.

HARUHIIIIIII ISM

Fri, 03 Nov 2006 03:02:50 GMT

Hi! I think this is my journal, if I'm not mistaken. Never use it much XD.

Well i guess an update for halloween~, cuz it fcukin rocked.

Ok so like first it was starting to suck really bad. Got stranded at jonny's house till about 6 then he got the car from his mom. We rushed to get his stuff together then bolted to Sin's. Grabbed her and because of traffic already really damn late >_>;;;. But eventually we hit my house, finish my Bankai Hanatarou (aka SSJ Hana) and run/drive fast to the mall. We met up with Mike and Randy who were in no costume what-so-ever. Jonny had got Randy his Anbu outfit, and Mike... well we didnt think he was gunna be with us for long XD. I guess he got permission to stay out late. So like, the mall is giving out NO candy (I KNEW THAT WAS GUNNA HAPPEN. No one ever fcuking listens to me.) So thats like, even MORE time wasted. Oh and some fat guy tagged along that Jonny knew from DeviantArt (i knew that if it was someone you met online, they're always fat.)

Well now its roughly 8:45-9:00 already. I'm pissed cuz alot of houses stop givin candy by then. We hit my house cuz its the closest to the mall. I throw a mobster jacket at mike so it at least LOOKS like he's dressing up. Oh then put a Tri-blade in his front pocket. Ya know, for style. Well Jonny and Sin waste most of the time, but we FINALLY start runnin' house to house. I have no bag, so i'm using my Shinigami sleeve to hold candy (that thing's huge lawl). One house made me lay in a coffin if I wanted candy... It was scary, and there was a strobe light so I kinda went blind. But we were at least moving.

Well less than 5 minutes pass, we're not even a block away (cuz everyones slow -_-) and i see a car park at my house, and 2 nigra's run to my house. WELLLLLL its Alex and Damian! WOO! I had invited Damian because last year we were alone, but He said he had to hit up a party. Party was canceled so they decided to hang out with us. Seriously those guys made my night XD. It was so much fun, running from house to house finding which ones still had people awake and which didnt. Some were asses, one guy was too high, and forgot it was halloween... and some guy offered us beer o_O. Still, LOTS of fun running around.

We saw a house that was having a party and Alex wanted to see wtf was goin on. Damian was too scared to do anything, and Mike & Randy were just shouting at the drunk girls "TITTIES!!!! SHOW US TITTIES!!!" XD FUNNY SHIT ROFL. Alex ran in, saw a girl being up-skirted and was like "whoa wtf im out o_o;;;"
Damian really wanted to go back, and I was curious, but Sin ruined our fun cuz she kept saying she doesnt wanna go anywhere near it. What a buzz kill -_-;

After a little, Mike had to leave, so we sent that fcuker off with Randy. -2 fun factor D:
Well there were no houses givin any more candy, and that reeally sucked. So we sat for a bit, then went over to Lake Eola (cuz I LOVE it over there at night). We wanted to chill in the Asian Gazeeeeeeebo thingy, but there were Hobo's sleeping in it =/. So we were over by the flags. Alex kept climbing EVERTHING like a damn Spider Monkey lmao. He even broke a metal piece on a Street light XDD. Gooood stuff.

Well they were bored so we somehow ended back up at my house, then the fat kid left (he was boring anyway). So me, D, Alex, Sin, and Jonny sat around just chilling, talking bout stuff, and Making fun of Gundam XD. Seriously, best night I've had in a loooong time ^_^.

Still, wished more people coulda came. There were multiple people who were working (AND YOU GUYS SUCK! ;~;) So it wasn't AS cool, cuz they coulda made it better. But oh well. Hopefully another time ^_^.

Well thats about it. First time i've typed alot in awhile..... So now ima go do somethin else cuuuz i'm bored and only like 2 people are gunna read this. Guess its a futile attempt at getting attention buut oh wellz XD.

A few pics from The Melancholy Of Haruhi Suzumiya. This is my favorite anime, so expect pics everyday for now on. Only 3 for now cuz I'm tired.

One of Yuki (thats awesome!):

And cute fanart of Haruhi and Kyon~

And my favorite. Its what my Icon thingy is from ^_^

Night guys.

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 15:35:07 GMT

Yeah.. I knew this was gunna happen. Last night was such a big shock that I had no nosebleeds, not even one. I felt it going to but it kept going away. Weeeellll around... 5-6am this morning... I felt kinda dizzy and didnt know why. Stood up and felt a sneeze coming. Before I sneezed I noticed that my hand was kinda wet. Well, when I sneezed, BAM!! Blood EVERYWHERE. I mean, EVERYWEHRE. On my pillows, on my blankets, on the wall, Maybe even on the ceiling. My nose was in mid-bleeding when I woke up. My hand was already COVERED in it (since i sleep with my hand right up to my face XD), and it had repeatedly done it thru the morning because there were already dry blood stains in some places. Of course I'm laughing my ass off cuz I knew it was going to happen.. Believe me, what happened last night is something I could NEVER have imagined to happen. AND NO FCUKERS I DIDNT LOSE MY VIRGINITY XD.

Well, this proves that my nosebleeds can back-up when theres something "important" going on :D (this is... Trial #2 that proved that XD)

Thanks to everyone who was at homecoming yesterday, you guys were awesome. It was so much fun to hang out wiff all of juu XD

<3 <3 <3 +1 <4 to all of you ^_^

^_^_^ OH MY GOD I GREW A THIRD EYE

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 11:24:21 GMT

Well it looks as if I update about... once a month... soooo heres an update!

UPDATE -

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Ok I'm good see you next month! <3

Lol?

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 02:06:47 GMT

Ok so.. I'm single again. Guess Angie just wasnt the right one for me.

BUUUUUT! I'm not going to be emo on this one! I gotta learn from my mistakes. I've got to continue. This is my senior year of HighSchool, and I have to make it count. Expect a lot of things to happen, and you BETTER be apart of it! ^_^

Much Love, and I'm Back On The Market!

Thanks so much
-Enjeru
-Colt
-BooDoo
-Damian
-Kenny
-Jonny

For your help today, I am deeply greatful.
You guys make my world go 'round!

Rawr o_O

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 13:40:57 GMT

AHH! HURRICANE ISH GUNNA KILL US ALL!

...in the mean time, No School Today! YAY!

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 19:17:50 GMT

I have not updated my LJ since I got back from New York.

...And I'm still not going to ^_^

>.>;

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 14:56:43 GMT

Woke up with one of those BAD nosebleeds today. Hell I have toilet paper in my nose as I'm typing this.

My dream... Wasn't even like... bad. It was a good dream, made me feel pretty good/special. Boost of confidence when I woke up too, till I rubbed my eyes and discovered blood everywhere. Lol this is becoming a nuisence... but it sure amuses me...

...Well i really have nothing much to say... I'll be posting alot of pics of the Sunbreeze festival thats going on right now in FFXI. I couldnt stop staring at the fireworks.... :D

Peace and Love. I miss you all ^_^

I think I'm still alive... But not alot :P

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 13:47:47 GMT

Well hello to you again, I don't believe i've met you. No wait... Nevermind I just havnt been on in a bit XD. Anyway.... How is everyone without me :D?! I hope you're all having a fun and eventful summer. Cuz, I'm not lol. Mostly Sleeping, eating... sleeping more... and playing video games.

Dad still works lots, but i try to make the most of my day. He still takes me to places, my lately its just been to his friends house (slept over crows for the past 2 days... It smells like Guinny pig and little girl in there @_@... I think i'm ready to drop my loliman title lol) Then before we went to crows house, we went to Richies... err... I fell asleep on the couch cuz it was either watch my dad play Texes Hold'em, or hang out with a bunch of 8-11 year olds... Yeah sleep was the optimal there XD. But I'm sure my dad just enjoys my company ^_^.

Wow... Only 4 days before i get back O_O. I'm still going to miss my dad XD. But I'll survive :O. I have a special person waiting for me (it gives me confidence!), so for now I can stay sane with this doing-nothingness XD. I... dunno if i'm aloud to say much more cuz i'm afraid i'll get cut ^_^. I still miss you, my Bunny XDD. Don't forget teh hotness... I mean Angie XD. Oh, and I miss you too Damian. And I miss you Maki... weirdo. And i mish teh kenny, tho he's on FFXI sometimes lol. And then theres Kyo, who leaves permanent bite marks in your arms x.x And............................... Do i know anyone else?? XDD

...OMG BAGEL I'm out... Dad got bagels, and i'm a happy camper!

Much love to all of you. See everyone at AFO VII! >:3

FFIV Kain FTW.

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 23:10:14 GMT

Ok, I know alot of you aren't paying attention to me mostly because I'm in a different state... and I'm never online... but! ...I'm still pretty bored XD. Lets see...

Mostly I've been sitting around, sleeping, eating, watching tv and playing video games. Like thats new XD. But now I have to do all that alone. And that sux lol. Sometimes after my dad gets off work we'll go to one of his friends house or go rent a movie. I'm just glad i get to see him ^_^.

Hmm... We always go to either Crows house or Shawns house on the weekend. My dad loves bbqs and stuff. I get a kick out of it, all his friends are funny as hell :P

Oh so this ends another day... We went to the beach, i swam a little and STARTED TO GET A TAN O________________O OMFG lol. I'm hoping to come back with color! For reasons few know... XD. I think that my new hair, the way my mustache and beard are goin, I look devilishly hansome... I even have this cool Digimon looking hat. Hell yeah. I like to wear it like Urahara, not showing my eyes :x

Well I hope to see you all soon, I miss each and everyone of you in your own ways... And I don't fell like telling you what those reasons are. I'm burnt out. Time for a nap... and FFXI ^^
(Oh! I got Dragoon on my character Kohl. Its so badass. I worship the day i have Armor just like Kains... I miss you Kain... Final Fantasy II/IV Represent ; ;

Lol Peace everyone

I Love that special something in all of you~ XD

...1 more than others o_O;

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 01:01:59 GMT

Doing this or I'll be cut... Pretty good XD

1. I’ll respond with something random about you:

2. I’ll challenge you to try something:

3. I’ll pick a color that I associate with you:

4. I’ll tell you something i like about you:

5. I’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you:

6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of:

7. I’ll ask you something I’ve always wanted to ask you:

8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours:

Live Update From New York!

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 06:27:03 GMT

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I'm off to mootxico!

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 03:55:21 GMT

I'm going to NY in the morning! See you all in 2+ weeks! LATER BITCHES ^___________^

Away From Keyboard? No, Away From Life

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 21:42:00 GMT

I'm gunna crawl under a Final Fantasy XI rock for the next two weeks.

I guess...

There's nothing for me to do for the next... 2 weeks now. I'm just going to mash... and just play it... and play it... and play it... and play it...

Yeah... I have nothing better... Well, anything better Have ACCESS to. O.O -glare-

Um... Have fun with your social lives?!

I have to pretend to be a mithra now... I think I'm weird for pulling off a girl so easily. No, I'm not gay, just more... Feminine. Yeah, I'm usually the bitch of a relationship XD. My Linkshell (group of friends) Said "You can't be a guy, you're too sweet" ... I dunno if I should be offended by that, or take it as an compliment.

Yay! I'm to go be "me". ^.^

Dont comment, you'll make me feel weird. :3

...Shut up and Leave me alone ¬¬;

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 10:14:59 GMT

-reads Friend user's page- ...

...I don't understand you people anymore XD

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 03:08:12 GMT

Well, I COULD made a metrocon post.. buut if you people cared, you would of stayed with me and experienced that same fun XD. Bah! You all had fun anyway, and I love you still. ^^

Maybe a post if I feel like it later. Summer school is draining away my soul ;-;

Wed, 24 May 2006 04:46:51 GMT

You gave me Hope. And for that, I will wait intill the end of time for you.

Wed, 17 May 2006 20:35:20 GMT

Birthday END.

Sun, 14 May 2006 05:55:09 GMT

Well. That was the quickest and most boring birthdays I've ever had lmao. Usually I hold a party or something big. But my house sux now so theres no where to put anyone but my closet. And thats already full... Zotto.

Well. I woke up. Started playing GunZ till my mom woke up and made me an omlette. Then said "OH! Right! Happy birthday!" ...Zotto

...Zotto

Anyway. Corey(little brother) made me a card that said "Happy BirthDay Kyle!" on it, with the lyrics to Peanut Butter Jelly Time on the back. What a weird kid... Zotto.
Then I played more gunz till my mom left for something, then Tiff came over ready to go to the mall, but ended up waiting for an hour for my mom to return. Went to the mall, talked to Mo, Got thrown out of Mo's (mom wanted to buy me presents), Played DDR without my shoes on (THEY'RE STILL AT SARA'S! XD) Cuz i was wearing flip-flops. Then met Damian in Mo's again. He bought me an Asa-sempai figure (i love it X3) and a gashapon of FullMetalPanic. Walked around the mall for like, 2 hours or so... Found out my mom had already left... 2 hours ago. So got her to pick Damian and I up. Came back here, watched E3 stuff. And just sat here till about 8. WE ACUALLY FOUND GIZMO SUSHI! XD. They have anime wallscrolls in there and stuff! :O its so cool. They even have a MGS wallscroll. Its badass. We all got different things (and i got Udon X3) but mostly sushi. Traded off and ate. It was really good XD. They have so much more to choose from that Tokyo Cafe lol. I liked my "Atom Bomb" roll XD. And the Son of Maki roll looked good XD. YES MAKI, YOU'RE A ROLL WITH FISH IN IT. I'ma eat you. :3. Zotto.

Got more presents. Well. Sorta XD. Got another Shuffle figure of Nerine, and some anime I dont know. Got a Peanut Butter Jelly Time With a Baseball Bat shirt, and a bottle of that cool yogurt drink. Spent $10.63 on a "Super Crunch Roll", and delivered it to Angie cuz she couldn't make it, and just sat at home. SO FREE SUSHI XD. (PLUS I KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE Lmao) Zotto.

Then me and Tiff(thats my sister :P) took damian home, watched a few E3 things on his 360 too. Then rushed back home. Met Jonny and Sinny in front of my house (they just came from Prom). Showed them my cool cosplay pics + funny pics. Then some E3 things. Followed by (after sinny fell asleep XD) by some Naruto 4 fights, and then Guilty Gear XX SLASH. Totally own. XD. Zotto.

So they just left, poped online for a second, josh mis-interperated what i said when "I dont care right now" And thought a whole different thing. But really, i didnt want to talk. I WAS TOO TIRED XD. Damn man, you gotta be smarter than that. lol. Zotto.

SO I'm going to go to bed now. Maybe I'll organize something else next week. Something NOT AS BORING AS TODAY! But anyway, Thank you Damian for stickin' with me all day. You're the only person who did XD. Peace nigga. Zotto!

~~Holy Order
Ky.... Zotto.

PS - If you're wondering why i'm saying Zotto after everything, its because I'm now Reno. I have goggles. And Pants. And a Shirt. And Hair. Zotto.... :D

Omg theres wine in my Strogonoff..?

Fri, 12 May 2006 00:35:13 GMT

O KJMO MKO JKOS 567sesgfhy542LhjklsjKLJJIOJDHUWHGEJHU PJKLEJ IOP OMG HITLERJEW!!!!

...

Anyway. Forget my last emo-post thingy :D. I'm like, TOTALLY stupid ^_^. And now 200^!(@%(damnit i cant see my keyboard... Its percent) better! I started writing it in the car on the way home. I Blame the rainy day. Made me feel sad somehow :3.

OMG ANGIE DON'T BE SUCKED INTO THE EMO-DRAMA! USE THE FLAMETHROWER! ......... Shit........ I cant swim X3.

Yeah. Just... exuse me ^_^. I am teh retard. DUr DEH Durrr! :D

Ok. For no reason I feel like saying. I Hope everyones future's turns out as best as they could! So like, Look forwards towards the future! And not Backwards towards the... future...? yeah.. I dunno.

I just hope everything will end happily for the ones I cherish. I love you guys, I sincerely do ^_^.

Thu, 11 May 2006 20:21:04 GMT

...And as I let go of her hand, I fall into the nothingness that hangs below me. My selfish actions has brought me to this. I had thought my journey was finally coming to an end. Yet now, there is nothing. As I fall, all I hear are the distant voices. The voices of what I have done, and what I should have done.

"It's over" - "Is that it?" - "Why do you shed tears?"
"Are you really this weak?" - "Are you just going to run away?"
"Did you make the right decision?" - "Why are you pushing this away?"
- "Theres nothing else left." - "You have no reason to strive."
"Is there no passion left inside of you?" - "Do you think everything will be Okay if you just Up and Leave?" - "You need not quit school because of this."

...I just dont want to exist.

(I'll finish this later. For now, Work.)

Thu, 04 May 2006 03:12:32 GMT

Quick update before I head to sleep. I've decited that my next Exciting cosplay is going to be Ky Kiske. Why? Cuz the bastard took my name, and its time I shed some spotlight on him... Ok, so he's like, 500billion times more popular than me. SHH. I wanted an exuse to get a sword like his. Then, shortly after I make the Ky Outfit, I'm making Robo Ky. With like, that bicycle or the 6 arms. You need a fighting game character to be in the middle of fighting! But yeah. I was playing Guilty Gear before cuz I was waiting for M$ Word to download (had to start on a Semester project that was due tomorrow and I was given 3 months to do :3)

But other than that... I cleared up my conflicts as much as I could. I'm really sorry about the last post, so if theres anything you need to get off your mind, PLEASE, and i mean Onegai!, don't hesitate to ask. I'll be more open, because being closed gets you nowhere, and you end up wasting time. No inferring, no hidden messages. Just a straight forward answer. kay? OKAY-DESU!

PS - I uploaded Almost all of the pics from Jacon so far. I think theres like, 5 left, and they're from my mask XD. Anyway. Enjoy~. http://s78.photobucket.com/albums/j88/Lamork/

G'Night anyway.
Now give Ky a hug, please :3.

The Best Day Ever

Mon, 01 May 2006 00:38:05 GMT

Wasn't that a great FUCKING day...

So, cuz i'm angry, Let me expose everything.

Lets start off with Friday. - {If you couldn't tell, this is where the angry part is. I start to cool down later tho! :D)

Friday - School, normal/boring. After, was suppose to goes to Sara's to finish whatever needed to be finished (looking back, everytime I go over there I dont do anything, and I feel worthless and like shit now.). But I waited it out anyway. It wasn't till after 10:30 she got home. Boy, my mom was pretty pissed... BUT I WENT OVER ANYWAY. And.... DIDNT DO ANYTHING BUT STAND THERE. TILL 3AM. Then I went to sleep. Only slept for 2 hours. But it was for the sake of FRIENDS.

Saturday - Maki was STILL making the outfits. But after that, everyone Rushed to get their stuff on and out the door. By 11 we were ready and left. Got to the con (got angry cuz i got a fucking door slammed in my face >_>), then joined up with other ANBU peoples. Pre-regged and set free, told to meet back at 5:45. Well after that, people ran everywhere for foods and such. Jonny stuck with me, and grabbed Kyo and Maki cuz they were hungry too(but it seemed like they wanted to go with someone else, but came anyway). Ate at McDonalds, then back to the con. Had a little time to spare, so people did... stuff. Then, we took pictures (sometime before or after food lol). Sara and Ashley disappeared again, So I went into the dealers room to buy stuff. Lost my mask, which was recoved by Kiba's nose and given to kyo. Found kyo, got it back, then shopped for her. The only time it seemed she was the nicest to me. We ran around looking for Killua plushies, but was unable to locate any. But she still bought a bunch of nifty stuff. Then we all re-assembled with the other ANBUs.

Ok, so heres the only thing that REALLY bothered me that day (other than Kyo's obscene rudeness ¬¬) is that EVERY time there seems to be a large group, I'm ALWAYS ignored. This happened MORE than once this weekend. It just seems that they just have more fun by themselves. Am I really that much of an outcast? Maybe once and awhile, Maki would try to say something, but purely out of pity that no one was talking to me. But then quickly returned to her 20+ yr old pedophilic friends -shiver- (you guys may call me a pedophile, BUT NO, I'M NOT A FUCKING PEDO. These guys are like, 20-27, and all i see them do is hit on Sara. (ILLEGAL). Sara - I know you'll probably turn away from me [cuz of everythin' i'ma say], but they make you do bad things. Things girls at your age shouldnt think about. Sure when I've been alone(almost alone, kyo was there somewhat[sleeping]) You act a little more your age, but in a big group... -shakes head-. Plus that cig that you had REALLY pissed me off. It doesnt matter if you only want hold it in your mouth, I thought you were better than that. -_- Sure i shouldn't judge, but the way i was raised, the things today is see just disgust me.)

Well, after standing in line for a good hour and some minutes, It moved! YAY! We did our little poses on stage, I Kage Mane no-jutsu'd everyone and did the Shika pose and our 30 seconds of Spotlight ended. I stood to the side and took some pics of people coming off the stage, then went to the back. Was Ignored (again. all i saw was jared with his arms around kyo+maki. shiver shiver again...) intill, outta nowhere, they wanted to take pics fighting over me. Tho it looked very un-enthusiastic when they asked (thats the vibe i felt girls) I agreed. Some attention is everything to me. After that, everyone went outside. Found kenny (wearing my old cosplay outfit from HunterXHunter). Sara was talking with other people, then disappeared to find Danielle i guess. Kyo was with me and Ken. I stepped on her shadow and made her attack kenny. Then she was a butt to me. lol. So me and kenny left early, went home, watched anime and Red VS Blue till i fell asleep. Yay~

Sunday - Ate a bagel, left for the con. Got there, and found NO ONE. So me and kenny went to the video game room and played some guilty gear (which sucked because kenny will never go easy on me, so I kinda never play it). Then we moved to DOA4 and fought a few times there. But of course, I always lose. Never any fun in that. Ran around looking for more people, ended back up in the game room, then left again. Found sara and her bunch of people. Oh yay. I pulled out my camera as they found a place to sit and ignore me. Took somewhat of alot of pics of all the good costumes I found. Kenny sat there, as kyo was inbetween us and Sara's group.

Another thing, which is a personal attack, Is kenny. Now i know people with vouch with me on this. So ima say it, because talking behind other peoples back is stupid shit. Anyway. Kenny - You're a great friend and all. We like alot of the same animes and figures. In our group (usually just you, Damian and I) we're the best of buddies. The only thing that gets on our nervs, is like, you're an attention whore. No matter where we go, If a girl is there, they're immidiatly attracted to you. Sure thats Fine for you, but me and D hate that lol. It makes us feel left out. And as for today, of course I felt left out. You were just havin a blast with kyo, as she naturally hates me. Or thats what it looks like. Then when angie showed up. She was like, really cold to me. She's been explaining and showing me the Jam outfit for the past month. Then when she's finally in it, I see her for no more than 5 minutes. Plus she kissed you. yeah. I didn't even get a hug. I'll go into more detail about this in a bit.

Well after that, EVERYONE just left me. Yes, Ditched. Gone. Whatever. I just layed there. At first I thought someone would come back. Angie came back for 30 seconds to kick me and inform me that she's going to get her sunday pass. Oh and i think Kyo asked wehre everyone was, and of course i didn't know. Then didnt see her for the next 2 hours or so. Or anybody. So I sat there for those 2 hours. You know, if you leave someone alone without a word, they get angry. At first I felt sad that no one seemed to care. Then I got angry, and punched my mask (very durable tho) for about 30 mins. Had some random 2 people ask if i was ok. By then I notices that the mask had my blood all over it. I laughed and started painting it with my knuckle. So now its blood-stained. (this is it after the blood had dried, but it was as red as the paint when i was done XD http://i78.photobucket.com/albums/j88/Lamork/DSCN1403.jpg) but yeah. By 3:30, no one was in sight, people hooked up an XBox and a TV next to me, and i called my mom to pick me up. I sent an angry Text message to Maki showing how mad i was - "I'm leaving soon. If you see anyone, tell them "Fuck you for ditching kyle", including you... ...Have fun. but not too much. im sure you already are" And some other stuff like that, i already forgot. But Yeah, i was pretty pissed off. So I went outside, waited till 4:45, and left. Thats that.

Well now I'll say the other stuff, cuz i just dont fucking care anymore.

Lets go back a 2 LJ posts ago. I mentioned 3 paths. Those three paths represented Relationships with 3 girls I had in my eyes. If ANY of you noticed, its Kyo Angie and Maki. Wow, thats hard to figure out. I guess my problem is, once I fall in love with someone, I stay in love with them. This has been in my head since 9th grade, when i Met you 3. I'll just say this, so it doesnt sound like I'm a Polygamist(one who has more than one spouse at one time - Used in marriage) lol. When I'm with one of you alone, You're like, the only girl in my eyes. Hence why I said that my heart split in three. It felt like i had three seperate hearts. But when I'm around more than one, I dunno what to do. I confuze myself and usually dont say anything XD. I cant Prioritize you girls. You all have things that keeps me towards you =/. Wow, i sound like a playa >_>

Angie - I've liked you since 9th grade. You were my first (unintentional) kiss(still havnt ever had a passionate one :P), my first girlfriend. The first person i've ever laid eyes on. You disappeared after 9th grade, and reappeared this year. Well, more like this semester. The first part of the year, everyone knew you were madly in love with kenny. But I thought that had ended, since (when i started hanging out with you guys after i quit the anime club) you started paying attention to me again. I thought it was a friendly thing, but I grew to like you again. Call it a fool's ambition, but I was quite fond of you. But then today you didn't give me a hug, but then kissed kenny (and thats mouth to mouth. In my book, thats a very strong gesture). I threw my thoughts out the window and had no desire... to do much of anything. Its like one of the paths closed up in front of me. I didn't feel like taking alot of pics, esp the one with you and kenny. Which i'm happy the sun in the back destroyed :P. Yeah it makes me sound like an ass, but you led me on to think that you liked me. Maybe you did. I don't know. But right now, i'm pretty distressed that all 3 of the girls I like pretty much ignored me. Maybe I'm wrong for like three at once...

Kyo - Well, what can I say? I've admired you since 9th grade. I've tried confessing to you, like, How many fukin times? 5-6 or something. I dunno, I just keep being drawn back to you. Havn't you noticed? I mean, i sit there an hour everyday after school with out. Why? Because I care. I thought you'd like SOME company. But all I ever hear out of your mouth (the most) is "Shut yer face!" among many others. I be nice to you, don't I? I play/kid around with you. And all it ever seems is that you're annoyed by me. If you are, why don't you just say something? The con this weekend... it just seemed like you were drawn away from me. I tried to give you some attention, but i felt pushed away. Maybe i'm the one at fault here tho...

Maki - Well, I asked you out a long time ago (which somehow the whole world knows lol. I dont even know that girl Kay, but she knows my relationships [kay and angie made a drama chart thingy...].) You were like, the coolest person at my first con, so i grew to like you pretty fast. Then I kinda went emo and stopped talking to you. But I returned (tho right now i feel pretty emo) and wanted to be your friend again. For the past month, I've been over at your house thinking I was helping with your outfits. Even tho i didnt do... anything. I even used the sickness you gave me to skip on work to get to your house. And for this past month, you acually made me feel pretty special. You payed attention to me, and talked to me alot. I liked that. And the last time I was over there (when you both were sick), I felt a special vibe. I mean, that was a pretty long hug... heh... >_>. Thats when the third path shined the brightest. Thats when I thought i knew you for you. Then this weekend happened. I found a cigarette. And... you seemed to have more fun with your other groups of friends. You... just changed from the 15 year old with the softest voice I knew, to a girl that was all over these 20+ year olds. It looked like you threw your dignity away to be what these guys wanted. Thats why I went home with Kenny. I guess I just wanted to let you what you wanted to be, if thats how you really wanted to be. Then sunday, you were just with your friends, and I felt out of place. You were with your group of friends. I'm the one at fault here, thinking a strong relationship can sprout so fast.

I still think of you three as really great friends. Talking with my father just now, and acually thinking about it, I think i'm over-reacting. His words "Don't let such a small quarrel end such a strong relationship." I just felt really bad today. I don't like being left alone. But I guess that makes me too dependent. I don't know. Maybe, I think, I'm just not worthy of such wonderful girls :P. Really, I Love you all, no matter what happens. But I have been typing this for like, 2 hours (cuz gundam called me + food + I uplugged everything in my room by accident). So my mood HAS changed and I'm not very angry (THANKS DAD! ^_^). I really should stop hoping for so much out of people.

So, to sum it up. Its all my fault.

I didn't go into everything I had in my head cuz I forgot, so you can AIM me if you really want to talk/yell/kill me.

All in All. Maybe I'm the one who ditched everyone for leaving me there alone...

PS - If you want me to Appologize for ANYTHING. Please just IM me. I feel really bad going back over it =/

Love, Sincerely Yours

Not Generic Hentai Guy
Not Loliman/PedoBear

But As true as my soul can be

Kyle Richard McKasty

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 13:22:54 GMT

HAHA! Well, last night was amuzing... XD. Sorry I couldn't meet up with you guys. Missed work for it and all, and couldnt get inside =/. Oh well.

THIS MORNING! Was amazing, yo. I had a dream about a certain someone(s) and person(s). And like the Generic Hentai guy I am. I woke up with a nose bleed! BUT! This isn't a normal nose bleed. Check this shizzle out, yo. (I coudln't stop laughing tho XDD)

Thank god I spilt ramen in my room last night. Had a handy roll of paper towels in there. Then i went into the bathroom and let it drip (more like flow) into the sink. The sink was like, ALL fukin red. XDD. It was a bitch to clean tho. Man, Even know i felt kinda woosy from the loss of a pint of blood (that coulda been donated to dying childeren :P), its still the highlight of my week.

Peace mhy niggas'

~Generic Hentai Guy Ky

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 01:27:10 GMT

Ya know... My mind is like... all boggled right now. o_O;;

I'm pretty sure that everyone I know personally reads this, so its hard to say.
My heart has split 3 ways. Each is a path. But I'm scared. I don't know which to follow.
They all have their twists and turns, each have their roses with thorns, and plants that bear beautiful fruits. Its a weird analogy, but its all I can think of in this confusion.

IM SORRY BUT OMGWTF I DUNNO WHAT TO DO D:

I'm just gunna flow thru normal right now. Uhhh. Yes. Plz. oh-mg. Don't look at me like that X3. Don't undress me with your eyes~~. Ahhh!

;________________________________;

(ps - i blame school)